Friday, June 12, 2009

OK BLOG REVIVED. I THINK I AM A FKED UP PERSON WHO IS A FAILURE IN EVERYTHING I DO. HAIS...IF ITS NOT FOR U GUYS AROUND ME, I CANT SURVIVE I SWEAR.

FINALLY I AM OUT OF TEKONG, COME TO TINK OF IT, I TINK MY COMMANDERS R REALLY INCREDIBLE PPL. I AM SURE I WILL MISS THE AND TEKONG LIFE IN THE FUTURE.

TO SUM UP MY LIFE IN BMT, I FEEL TAT THERE R TIMES WHERE I REALLY FIND LIFE THERE SO SUCKY I WANNA EXPLODE. HOWVER, SOMEHOW I TUMBLED ALL THE WAY TO POP.

I TINK MY LIFE SUCKS. LONELY....COLD....LIFELESS....LISTLESS....CANT FIND ANY WARMTH ANYWHERE....MY FRENS AROUND ME R BUSY, I CANT POSSIBLY BE TROUBLING OR DISTURBING THEM TO GO OUT RIT....SO IT LEAVES ME ALL BY MY OWN...I SHUD JUS VANISH ONE DAY.

I REMEMBER ON A FEW OCCASIONS IN TEKONG, MY BUNKMATE SAY Y I LOOK 'SIAN SIAN' EVERYDAY. SOME TOT I WAS SHAGGED, SOME TOT I WAS LISTLESS OR NOT INTERESTED, BUT DEN WHO KNOWS THE ACTUAL REASON MORE DEN ME. WHU NOES MY TROUBLES....U TINK THOSE BUKNMATES WHO INTERACT WITH ME FOR JUS 8 WEEKS CAN NOE MY PROBS TAT WELL. I NEED TO SORT OUT MY PROBS FAST....

HAIS...TOLD U I AM FKED UP. COMPLAINING HERE AND EVERYTIME AS THOUGH EVERYONE OWES ME SOMETHING WHEN ITS JUS SOLEY MY PERSONAL PROBS. MAYBE WHEN I FIND A SOLUTION TO MY PROBLEM, I WILL BE A STRONGER MAN.

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Monday, January 12, 2009

LIFE SUKS TO THE CORE..

i cant find a better statement to start off la so chill, tat shall be my heading from now on till i find something interesting in life. ok, things r forever nt going my way in life, but cmon man noone's life is foreevr his or her way. I must strive to have my own way, BUT NOT WHEN I HAVE ONLY 3 MONTHS OF FREEDOM! i swear i still have unfinished business!

I havent really blog for a long time as my blog is as dead as me. but den the chatbox is still constantly active and updated....WELL DONE! however, whoever tat person is, u fucking stop scolding my fren or i fucking bang u, and i swear. U dun offend an emo person man, and i can fucking swear tat again.

this laptop sucks, cant upload pics...see nth goes rit for me... and i have sore throat fever and den still being trapped in the office, everyday counting down and seeing myself gettign fairer as days go past. not really fun a thing to do here.....

ok i need to find life, someone freakin find some life for me!!! LOLS!!! HAHAHAHA

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Friday, December 19, 2008

OK I AM BACK TO BLOGGING...FINALLY AGAIN HAHAS!
THESE FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN ONE OF MY MOST INTERESTING DAYS OF MY LIFE AS I FINALLY STARTED WORKING IN JURONG JTC....STILL REMEMBERED THE TIME WHEN DANIEL AND I WERE ROAMING THE COUNTRY FOR HRS AND DAYS TO HELP ME FIND PLACES TAT REQUIRE STAFF OR WORKERS.. RIT NOW THE SEARCH IS OVER...AND I AM HAPPY...
AFTER AS HAVE ENDED DRAMATICALLY, I HAVE STARTED TO WORK MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST, I HAVE BEEN TRYING MY BEST TO REGAIN AND OBTAIN THINGS TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE SO TAT I WILL BE ABLE TO LEAVE FOR NS WITHOUT REGRETS. HOWEVER THERE IS STILL ONE PART OF MY LIFE NOT YET FULFILLED OR ACCOMPLISHED, I HOPE IT WILL BE SETTLED SOON BUT I NEED TIME.=)
CAN U ALL JUS BELIEVE IT IF I TELL U ALL TAT MY WORK IS HECTIC AND SUPER BUSY NOONE WILL BELIEVE ME....COS RIT NOW THIS POST IS ACTUALLY WRITTEN DURING MY WORKING HRS.. I AM SLACKING WAHAHAHA!!!! BUT OF COURSE THERE R TIMES WHERE THINGS CAN BE REAL BUSY AND TIRING, BUT TRUST ME U CNT FIND ANYTHING MORE TIRING DEN ALEVELS I SWEAR( UP TILL NOW)
THIS FEW DAYS I AHVE BEEN THINKING, ACTUALLY SKOOL LIFE IS GOOD, I MISS THE SKOOL, THE CLASS, THE EMONESS, THE NOISE, THE NONSENSE, THE LAUGHTERS. SUCH TINGS CANT BE RETRIEVED ANYMORE SAD TO SAY.
ALOS, I LIKE TO THANK DANIEL, HE HAS BEEN A GREAT FRIEND THRUOUT THESE 2 YEARS ESPECIALLY AFTER AS. TRUST ME, HE IS A CLEVER PERSON, I AHVE BEEN PROVED WRONG AFTER AS OVER AND OVER AGAIN AS I STARTED TO REALISE HE IS ACTUALLY MORE STABLE AND MATURE NOW. =))))))
ON THE OTHER HAND, I MISS MY SEC4 PALS WO I WILL NEVER 4GET THRU OUT MY ENTIRE ENTIRE LIFE. DUE TO THIS DUMB JOB, I CANT GO OUT WITH PEEPS LIKE JOSH...=(

10DEC WAS MY BDAE, I RECEIVED A YELLOW CAREBEAR FROM MYRA AND DON. TRUST ME, THOUGH ITS A BIT GAY, BUT TAT CAREBEAR SURE HOLDS A SUPERBLY GREAT SIGNIFICANCE TO ME. I WILL HANDLE IT WITH CARE, I PROMISE. OK, I AM ENJOYING A NEW LEASH OF LIFE.

SIGNING OFF =)......FROM OFFICE COS I AM DISMISSED LIAO WAHAHAHA!!!!

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Wednesday, December 3, 2008

WOW FINALLY I TOOK THE EFFORT TO CLICK ON THE SIGN-IN ICON AND WRITE SOMETHIN ON THIS ANCIENT BLOG...HAHA!!

ok! ytd was prom!!! i wanna thx everyone who are willing to take pics with me cos i dun look good in the cam... I wanna thx those who spent this wonderful evening with me, those who spent the entire nit with me though i ended up alone in the hotel for long dreadful periods of time trying to figure out how to load the game in Ashraf's PSP. DIE i am seriously BLUR...

THE STAR of the night was The Legendary Kang Kang la duh!!! hahas The power of our table alone is enuff to enable her to finish runner-up le haha!! Though the time in the ballroom was short, but isnt it the reward which we need after these 2 stressful years of dunnowad... And of course i will not forget stupid joshy's firm and hard carrot from stupid carrotland...And of course, he die die must mention his 140 bucks Amani Xchange belt...Idiot...HAHAHA!!!!!! JK LA WE TIGHT!! LOL!

haha photo-taking was the niciest part. We took lots of pics, and the gals and guys all look great.

Spent the entire nit in hotel cos i cant go clubbing, too young to enter...wtf....
Sry guys i went home early cos i was really not tat good... hais

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Friday, October 17, 2008

U see i havent been blogging for a long time u see. Actually i have nothing much to say as everthing seems fine.. but den again for some ppl info if they r still not convinced....

Lets see, one day some ppl tot i was a nuisance and only tot of me as a whiner and a complainer...( though everything is settled now) Ok maybe he is correct. But den again, why is it i seem to have much more friends around me... lol!

My Sec 4 friends such as Myra Josh Yiyao Jin Zhe Zul......

My dear badminton Friends such as Hong Wei, Kuo Un Benjamin and of course beloved Syed, etc etc

as well as my badminton juniors Vijay Regi Xinyi, Cailing etc etc

Not to mention my outside badminton friends especially my dear pri school pal Shuotian a good friend indeed whu still keep in contact for the 8th year...

Of course MY PJC friends ranging from classmates such as Daniel..Thx for being so kind and considerate all the times...relax and study hard...u have been significant in my eyes its just i duno how to express it out only... Also thx for being a good listener..

Not to forget ppl like Collin, Jason..U guys r real muggers man haha! But clever ones indeeed... Boss! haven teach me Chem!! zzz -.-

Of course my other PJC friends such as yijie...dun feel bad abt asking me so many qns...I am gald to be of a help at times... And of course Weiliang who keep wanting to find a fixed day to study with me but i was rather busy.. dun worry we have time. Thanks to weiliang again for shopping with me in Queensway Vivo... sounds gay but thx for being such a patient and good-tempered friend.

And also to many of my bp juniors from other JCs thx for finding me of a help when it comes to asking me J1 topics...

Also not to 4get ppl like Pris whu although is no longer in PJ, but u know thanks for still keeping in contact hahas! Good to know u r doing well in Poly..

The list goes on......

U SEE there r so many ppl around me whu does not find me a nuisance and learn to appreciate me. At the same time i have learnt to appreciate them too...I believe i have more friends den those who criticise me....

SO i will not reflect on myself jus because of such comments..these ppl may call me self centered or wad so ever la but as u noe, i have so many true friends round me whu dun tink so. If i have friends who hang out with me since P6 and have never find any prob with me i tink i am ok u noe...

SO wad i will be doing is...i will learn to appreciate and care more for my these friends around me...I am a happy person... i dun tink its too much of my prob. As wad Josh said b4 over MSN, i am doing fine...So i believe in him and his words, cos i believe in a true friend and his words.

Have a good day/night guys =)

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Saturday, June 28, 2008

Todae i attended my cousin's 21st bdae...den many thoughts rush thru my mind.... While msging josh, suddenly we were like recalling ppl's bdates and it occur tat we cant remember every single close friend's bdates..sad....

PLs dun be angry or wad if i cant remember ur bdae cos my memory sucks A LOT. but for closed ones of course i remember la...

In this hectic and stressful life, our minds r always occupied and we tend to forget stuff unknowningly...THIS SHUD NOT BE AN EXCUSE i noe....my fault...

i just wan to let u guys know tat although i may not remember some (only some ah) of u all's bdaes, i will remember it forever the next time... trust me... srry....

I just wan to let u noe tat to me, friends r far more significant den dates i will remember u all as my true friends.... =p

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Monday, June 9, 2008

Now is 3.50 am, its the half-time of Netherlands vs Italy, i went to the friendster website and typed in his hotmail address... den i saw all his photos and other stuff..starting to tink how did a guy like tat just disappeared...

While i have accepted the fact, whenever i hear songs related to him or see his pics by chance, i will start tinking....of the times....

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Friday, June 6, 2008

Actually, referrign back to post on thurs, i feel the need to apologise firstly cos if i have offended u, pls dun be angry my dear classmate... I am just speaking my mind... But i have to let u noe tat i mean wad i have typed...

have a good day/night=)

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Today i finally realised something...Actually y must human beings be of diff genders? i realise guys r after all easier to tok to and spend the time with... Just imagine the time with him...was so happy den...

Todae went for badminton actually noone knew tat i was playing with swollen toes tat i cant even run properly...tats y i chose not to run for the bus and i wore shoes not slippers...wahaha...saying all these r of no use they r just excuses to me...nth is gonna stop me from achieving me aim...

Oh did i tell u i like someone? wahhaha alan worhx..like also like guy la...Jk JK!!! But if i were to stay in my class for long i will become not straight real soon 0o...OOps haha kiddin!!!!!

I have been tinking so far..i noe of many gals around me. some of them r kind some caring some talkative some boyish...but at the end of the day i realised the kinds tat i find sad r those whu tink real highly of themselves and have the sense of arrogance within them... Looks r superficial..they r external.... Badminton boys in my cca...Guys in my class... many r like despo for hot gals lol!!! ( joshy ah! tinking of gal rit! basket! hahahaha!! how tight again lol!) haha its actually normal behaviour by guys..But after going thru funny funny encounters i realised badminton and friends r still the best! badminton racket shall be my wife for now haha!

U noe...i have been looking at her many times....of course she does not noe...haha wad am i writing now??? ok to confuse u all....i am looking at my badminton racket ok? haha! duno la duno la life so complicated alreadi still make it more complicated for wad zzzzzzzz

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Thursday, June 5, 2008

Today i went for badminton a susual on a thurs, not to train this time but rather to play... Seeing my friends under my coach excelling and improving, i cant help it but feel rather envious of the time they have since many r only in pri and sec schools... Also, i played with my sec3 friends as usual..but i lsot to him straight sets todae after beating him straight sets the week b4... hmm 3 years later, wad will the score be?? hmmm i dunwan to go tink abt it... How i wish i can continue training, seeing others train and yet doing nth is a torture...it makes me sore...
Nvm, i will improve my own by working doubly hard wahaha!

Today, i visited one of my classmate's blog, he mentioned abt his loss of passion abt badminton which caused him to 'waste' his 2.5 years away... Reading this, i cant help but feel sorry for him because he was wrong...badminton did not waste his 2.5 years away, he wasted it himself... Reading his post, he mentioned abt how other kids r training and tat he was once in their shoes. However he felt tat it was foolish of him to do so they r not going to become professional players or coaches.. I cant help it but to feel sorry for him again as he misunderstood the purpose of those ppl training so hard out there... The aim of those kids training is not to reach the national team or to play professional badminton as a career in the future, the aim is to improve in something which u r determined and keen to imporve in...the aim is to accomplished soemthin(skills) in the process, and at the end of the day, u noe u have tried ur very best in the sport tat u like the most, u noe u have no regrets... U get the passion my friend? its not all abt being the best or winning...its abt not letting urself down...

Life is short, if one were to give up on someting thinking tat at the end of the day, there will definitely be ppl out there much better and u will never make it to be amongst the best, den i am have a question for tat person- y r u studying in school now? If onyl those confident of making it to the top r the ones continuing the battle, den many including u or me shud be eliminated from the education system long ago... Life is nt abt achievements, its abt acomplishment, pride in oneself, and the absence of regrets in oneself.

dear friend, training badminton is not a scam, and definitely not a big scam. By not giving up, one can be weak, but at least... at least when he is gone, he noes tat there he has tried... He noes tat unlike those whu stopped halfway tinkign tat they r wasting their time, he has tried to aim for the top..whether he or she fails, he has an answer in himself, he can answer for himself, he can proudly said he has tried his very very best... tats the passion of badminton.... My friend, it may be a scam to u becos u tink tat it has been cheating u and ur precious time away.. But u shud look from another perspective, u have been cheating urself all these while... U can mention ur 2.5 years of wastage, yes i agree its wasted because u have chose to take a big U-turn and allow ur efforts to go down the drain...

U mentioned abt competitive badminton, i am curious to know how competitve u have been? training 'hardcore' for 2.5 years playing everyday aint competitive...The no. of competitons and the experience from comps will determine how competitive one is... As far as i noe, a competitve player will not panic in a badminton court and choose to rematch with the person after the match... let ur lvl of competitiveness be expressed on the court...

My friend, the reason y those in the top schools r able to perform better is because they have the experience from comps, they do not fear in the court... they have played countless matches in comps... training alone and being very 'pro' after countless training sessions is not enuff.

PPl train hard not solely to become professionals my friend...in school level, we trained hard so we will not put our school to shame... Even if we lost all the games, we knew we have tried our best, our oppnents r better we wish them all the best... We shud be mature enuff to know tat the better team wins. But if we were to give up months or a year b4 tinkign we will never progress, den we will not only lose our match, in our heart we r not only a loser, but a coward, a coward tat is not willing to take up the challenge, a coward tat gives up b4 the battle even starts... Quitting is not a solution, it not only leaves u with nth, it takes away the pride within u. At the end of the day, u cant even say tat u have tried ur best... Den of course my friend, in such circumstances, u r really wasting ur 2.5 years away.

I had a close friend who has a passion in badminton a real passion, he trained very hard since young but is also no where near professional level...But despite tat he wakes up at 6 daily in the holis and come from the east to the west jsut for badminton training... If everyone were to tink like u, den wad he is doing is foolish... However, he came almost everyday with a smile despite the long journey, even if its for an hour. Even when he was seriosuly ill, he still mentioned abt going back to play badminton and improve back his skills after he has recovered... U took 2.5 years to tink tat u have spent a long long time trainign hardcore, he took 9 years of training 5 times a week under the coach and his father... DO u still wanna compare? He ddint mention anythign abt wasting time... All of us here noes tat we r not going to take up badminton as a career, but WE MAKE SURE TAT WITHIN THESE FEW YEARS WE MAKE FULL USE OF THIS PRECIOUS TIME TO FULFILL OUR DREAM FULFILL OUR PASSION. As long as we improve as tiem progresses, we know we r gettign better and the sense of accomplishment comes from our hard work and effort put in. Guess wad, he is gone for good now...cant play anymore...but his last words to me was tat he is getting better and will be stronger in badminton the next tiem i see him.

Until now do u get it my friend, if u like a sport, ur only opponent is urself. U dun go around constantly comparing with others.. U compared with urself whether u have put in ur best, whetehr u r determined to improve, determined to prove to others tat U MAY NOT BE THE BEST, BUT U HAVE TRIED UR BEST AND U HAVE NO REGRETS... Sports is not lke tat, the passion abt a sport is not liek tat too...

Coaches may be mediocre as u said, but i believe tat as long as one believe in himself, he will be a happy badminton player and he will be proud to say tat he was represented his college with pride and has lost with pride too.

Lastly, u kill me i will still not believe tat a person who has btrained for 2 years can be on par with a player from sports school... I will not explain y but let me tell u or enlighten u, when u reach a certain level and its harder to improve, it may seem tat 2 players r on par with each other. However just let the 2 of them step into the same court in a competition, the result will be clear. I bet my head on this...

ok time to sign off...

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Tuesday, June 3, 2008

lol just a random funny vid haha enjoy...

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Monday, June 2, 2008

Todae badminton was totally bad... i mean after u have played considerably well for the past weeks suddenly u feel so weak and slow on the court u know something is wrong but u cant tell wad it is, and at the same time u wan to keep playing to prove tat u can do it! tats a kind of feeling i hated, a kind of feeling i experienced todae... sad rit?....haiz lols! but den again, there is still time to improve... TRUST ME, MAY MY BLOG BE THE WITNESS, AFTER JUNE HOLIS I WILL BE MUCH BETTER IN TERMS OF BADMINTON....

Todae einstein cradle was fun! i realised i am lucky to be involved in such meaningful events, hope there will be more in the future. U know school life is not all abt studying mugging, these r things tat one will not remember in the future. I got my einstein cradle tee! so kawaii! lol einstein baby pic behind..hahas

ok i dun really use the phrase"signing off" but i will use tat now....

Remember i will strive to improve i will try my best...

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Sunday, May 25, 2008

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Friday, May 23, 2008

U noe i have been lookign back at my past posts in my blog and i regretted...
regretted not writing more abt him, regretting not writing down each day wihich i have talked or spent with him, now tat everything is gone looking back there is nothing much tat i can recall....tats sad real sad....
haha but life must still be happy rit...jiayou!

once one of my friend told me something- he said he likes a gal and wan to comfess but he was afraid the gal will reject and eventually they cant even be friends... tats sad....lols So i was thinking will tat happen to me one day too??
But then, i watched a drama show a week ago, and a character in the show mentioned tat- if u dun try u will never know, if u get rejected at least u have tried ur best and there will be no regrets... If rejection means losing friendship too its soemthing to be regretted actually lol ( see i can be councellor)

soemtime i was thinking, y ask us to memorise content such as geog when we r likely to foget most stuff after graduation... (trust me some pppl forget immediately after the paper ends) haha!

Do just once what others say you can't do, and you will never pay attention to their limitations again.
James R. Cook

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jus happened to drop by and take a look at stuff hmmm when can i ever have the time to take my time to enjoy things around me with no worries.

just a song to brighten up my day...

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

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8:40 AM

lol this is fun maybe i shud try it out some days lols..............!!!!!wahaha!

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8:15 AM

Look man its not tat i am lazy to post its just tat when i enter my blog to listen to songs, i always forget to post sorry ah.....

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8:07 AM

FINALLY I AM UPDATING MY BLOG. These few weeks passed so quickly i realised i am so much older. MAybe i am spending too much time on badminton. Life in class is the same- as noisy as usual, but these ppl r quite fun at times.

Also, maybe its due to long-term emoness i am starting to get used to the state of emoness. I dislike the feeling of happy cos such feelings will never last and leading a happy life means there is nth in life to aim for. Instead, being sad is rather a good feeling at times and it gives u the target to mett my dreams. Oh no i am becoming crazy...

Also, i have the kind of feeling the best in me has yet to come. In terms of everything, i have not unleashed the true potential within me maybe after i put aside badminton it will be the time, but can i bear to put it aside??

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